First I Was 'angry,' Then

I Rejected The God That Was Portrayed As Masculine And Judgmental And Cruel At Times. The Concept Of Us Bring Not Worthy To Receive Him Is Something I Used To Say Every Sunday In Church, And Eventually I Just Couldn't Say It With Any Conviction.

Ageism Works In Both Directions. As A Teenager In The Public Eye, People Would Talk Condescendingly To Me. When You Get Older There's This Feeling That You Have To Start Carving Up Your Face And Body. Right Now I'm In The Middle Ground - I Think Women In Their Thirties Are Taken Seriously.

That I Would Be Loved Even When I Numb Myself. That I Would Be Good Even When I Am Overwhelmed. That I Would Be Loved Even When I Was Fuming. That I Would Be Good Even If I Was Clingy.

What I Try To Keep In Mind Is That There Are Going To Be A Lot Of Articles That Are Going To Be Misrepresentative Of What I'm About As A Person And As A Writer.

In A Perfect World, There Would Be No Censorship, Because There Would Be No Judgement. I Find The Hypocritical Aspect Disconcerting, To Say The Least. We Can Show People Being Murdered On Television, But I'm Not Able To Say "chickenshit" In Public. At The Same Time, I Understand That People Are Afraid. Because I Think Censorship Is About Fear. It's Just Fear Being Projected Onto Art.