I Feel Like I Came

I've Always Been A Fan First And Foremost - Obsessing Over Bands And Seeking Out Bands, And Spending Hours And Hours Listening. When I Played Music, The Scope Of My Fandom Became More Myopic; I Was Focusing On The Bands We Were Touring With, Or The Bands On The Label. And You're Always Positing Yourself In Relation To Other Bands. Since I Haven't Been Playing, I Feel A Little Less Cynical. I'm Able To Seek Out Music And Approach It Strictly As A Fan.

I Like To Take Things Incrementally, And Strive For Something That Feels More Attainable.

I Love Coffee. I Love A Midday Espresso On Set, Just For The Energy.

I Think That The Intentions Are Genuine In The Search For Authenticity, But It Can Tip Over Into Absurdity So Quickly. I Just Start To Wonder, Like, What Authenticity Even Is, And Whether We Can Even Start To Define It In Such A Globalized World.

I Grew Up Outside Of Seattle, And Have Lived Here My Whole Life, And I Think That There Is A Culture Of Questioning, And Guilt. Almost An "anti-ambition." Like, An Awareness, And Then A Subsequent Guilt. But Sometimes That Progressive, Liberal Guilt Is Really Obnoxious, Too - In Some Ways, I Think It's Better To Just Own It. It's Weird, That Actually, The Acknowledgement Of Privilege Or The Enactment Of Guilt Can Be As Obnoxious As Anything Else. It's A Never-ending Rabbit Hole. We're Really In A Rabbit Hole Right Now, With This Conversation. We're Just Spiraling Down Into The Void.