I Struggle In These Situations

I've Been Wanting To Tell People My Theory About What Goes On After Time. It's Beyond Our Consciousness. We Get Glimpses Of It Between The Infrared And The Ultraviolet - The Narrow Narrow Corridor Of Light That We Are Able To Perceive.

Marketing Is All Pervasive. They're Getting Marketed Products They Can't Afford - Can't Ever Hope To Acquire. They Believe The Only Way They're Ever Going To Achieve Happiness Is The Acquisition Of These Products. Products They Can't Afford. They See People Living That Lifestyle, And They Have That Lifestyle Beamed Incessantly Into Their Minds Through Media, Which You Know I Participate In.

What I Might Do Is Watch Mrs Doubtfire. Or Dead Poets Society Or Good Will Hunting And I Might Be Nice To People, Mindful Today How Fragile We All Are, How Delicate We Are, Even When Fizzing With Divine Madness That Seems Like It Will Never Expire.

What It Felt To Me Was Like The Dissolution Of My Idea Of Myself. I Felt Like Separateness Evaporated. I Felt This Tremendous Sense Of Oneness. I'm Quite An Erratic Thinker, Quite An Adrenalized Person, But Through Meditation, I Found This Beautiful Serenity And Selfless Connection. My Tendency Towards Selfishness, I Felt That Kind Of Exposed As A Superficial And Pointless Perspective To Have. I Felt Very Relaxed, A Sense Of Oneness. I Felt Love.

If Anybody Needs Any Help With Anything, I'm Prepared To Help.