I Used To Love To

I'd Say That I've Been Reclusive The Last 34 Years. That Was My Big Thing As A Kid, Staying Home From School. I've Trained Myself To Be Psychosomatically Sick A Lot. Anytime I Go Out, It Is Just Something To Deal With, Even Walking To The Grocery Store. If I'm Supposed To Go From One Place To Another Place That Isn't That Comfortable, I Usually Don't Go.

I'm Here Because Of What I Write. Obviously, I Must Know Something

Now I Feel Like Whatever I Do, No One Can Hurt Me. I Cannot Be Violated, I Cannot Be Humiliated, I Cannot Be Disregarded, I Cannot Be Disrespected.

I Have A Very Steadfast Tendency To Parent Myself, To Monitor My Development Into The Person I Want To Be. I've Tried To Keep The Corruption Minimal.

I Don't Want To Make This Sound Negative At All, But In The Best Way Possible I Freaking Give Up. I Give Up. You Can't Try And Make Your Life Perfect. I'm Just Trying To Have A Good Time, And I'm Just Trying To Appreciate The Things That I Have Around Me. I Give Up On The 'dream' Dream. I Think That It's All A Dream. I Think It's All Wonderful And Terrible. And I Give Up In The Nicest Way.