I Was Always The Shame

I Had Been Doing Summer Stock Every Summer While I Was In College. We Did A Showcase, Like Most Good Conservatories Do - Monologues And Things That Agents And Casting Directors Come To See. From That I Got An Agent.

I Wasn't Dating Anyone. I Was Hyper-focused On Acting. So I Didn't Bring A Guy To The Prom. I Was The Lone Gay Person As Far As I Knew.

I Don't Want To Be The Center Of Attention. My Posture Has Changed. I Walk With My Head Down And Shoulders Slumped. Suddenly I Carry Myself As If I'm Ashamed Of Something.

I Don't Want To Be Tom Cruise. I'm Not After Some Movie Blockbuster Career. That's Not The Kind Of Work I'm Interested In. And Frankly, It's Not The Kind Of Work I'm Ever Going To Get.

I've Done Sexual Stuff Before - Onstage, Which Is Even More Emotionally Difficult. With A Tv Crew Around, You Are Stopping And Starting; It Becomes Really Technical. It's Not Erotic At All.