Marriage? I Don't Know What

New York Wasn't Everything I Thought It Would Be. It Did Not Welcome Me With Open Arms. The First Year, I Was Held Up At Gunpoint. Raped On The Roof Of A Building I Was Dragged Up To With A Knife In My Back, And Had My Apartment Broken Into Three Times. I Don't Know Why; I Had Nothing Of Value After They Took My Radio The First Time.

I Think They Were Scared Of Me Because I Was Different. I've Always Asked, 'why? Why Do I Have To Do That? Why Do I Have To Look This Way? Why Do I Have To Dress This Way? Why Do I Have To Behave This Way?'

Not Only Do We Suffer From Racism And Sexism, But We Also Suffer From Ageism. And That Is That Once You Reach A Certain Age, You're Not Allowed To Be Adventurous, You're Not Allowed To Be Sexual And I Think That's Rather Hideous. [...] I Mean, Is There A Rule? Are You Just Supposed To Die When You're 40?

Beauty Is Where You Find It.

Bad Girl, Drunk By Six, Kissing Someone Else's Lips. Smoked To Many Cigarettes Today, I'm Not Happy When I Act This Way.