What I Want Is Not

I Hurt Myself Today To See If I Could Feel. I Hurt Myself, You Said To Try To Make Him Feel. So I Hurt Myself Again To See If He'd See Me. I Hurt Myself Again And No, He Never Could See Me.

I Think Everyone Understands Grief, The Journey It Takes Us On, Whether It's The Death Of A Loved One, The End Of A Relationship, A Disappointment. Some People Don't Deal With It, The Power Of It. Some Do. Some Feel The Weight Of It And It Informs Their Choices. I've Had To Open Up To Grief In Different Contexts.

You're Just An Empty Cage Girl, If You Kill The Bird.

You Know When People Smile Too Much? It's Painful. I Find It Really Painful. Happy Is Not Very Reliable. I'm Trying To Live Like, Um, With A Fierce Calm.

Hair Is Gray And The Firers Are Burning. So Many Dreams On The Shelf. You Say I Wanted You To Be Proud Of Me. I Always Wanted That Myself.