You'd Think I Was Shoving

And Then, As The Room Went Black, I Was Suddenly Hyperaware That Edward Was Sitting Less Than An Inch From Me. I Was Stunned By The Unexpected Electricity That Flowed Through Me, Amazed That It Was Possible To Be More Aware Of Him Than I Already Was. A Crazy Impulse To Reach Over And Touch Him, To Stroke His Perfect Face Just Once In The Darkness, Nearly Overwhelmed Me. I Crossed My Arms Tightly Across My Chest, My Hands Balling Into Fists. I Was Losing My Mind.

For A Second I Was Just A Kid – A Kid Who Had Lived All Of His Life In The Same Tiny Town. Just A Child. Because I Knew I Would Have To Live A Lot More, Suffer A Lot More, To Ever Understand The Searing Agony In Edward’s Eyes.

I Promise That This Will Be The Last Time You’ll See Me. I Won’t Come Back. I Won’t Put You Through Anything Like This Again. You Can Go On With Your Life Without Any More Interference From Me. It Will Be As If I’d Never Existed.

About Three Things I Was Absolutely Positive. First, Edward Was A Vampire. Second, There Was A Part Of Him - And I Didn’t Know How Potent That Part Might Be - That Thirsted For My Blood. And Third, I Was Unconditionally And Irrevocably In Love With Him.

I Know Okay, Sorry. I Am. Look, I'm Human. It's Hard To Be Fair Sometimes. We Don't Always Feel The Right Thing, Do The Right Thing